put both legs over the fence and run...

It occured to me today that I am all grown up, have nearly completed my professional education, and it is nearly necessary for me to move towards the light know as a career. The important question, what do you want to do Jill? Who do you want to affect? Where do you want to work? What would be the most rewarding?

It has been a popular discussion piece, of late, with my mom and her desire for me to "find myself". This conversation has revolved around the ideal that I should focus on myself and not date anyone due to the recent failure a very longterm relationship and then, the communication breakdown with one of the most fascinating person I think I have ever met. Yes, those events sucked and still wear on me at times. However, I think the more pressing issue of "finding myself" needs to focus on finding what I want to do in life because my heart will lead its own way other fronts.

So, why am I writing about this? Why is this bothering me today? Because they want me to write a "vision" for my future pharmacy practice! What, I have to decide something and write it down? Eek! This assignment is therefore tightly intertwined with what I believe I want to do with my professional life. I don't know.

There are many things that I do know. I want to help patients more than anything. I want to see and talk to patients...to make their day, makes mine. I don't want to pour, count, lick and stick (ie. walgreens will never be my home, ever!) . I want access to the whole patient not just the prescription. I want to have a great working relationship with other providers. I want to work in a small setting where I know everyone (reminds me of that Cheers song). I want to do something different for my community that will improve their quality of life. I want to love my job and love to get up in the morning.

Another issue that weighs heavily is the recent disaster. I ask myself, why is important that I find myself when so many others have lost all they have and essentially themselves...their "vision"?

I heard a couple of things today in class that I thought were very pivotal to my search. Plan not to fail. Have a lack of fear. Have passion. My fortune that is taped to my computer that I see everyday says "nothing in the world is accomplished without passion"

Everyone else thinks and evidently knows you are a strong person who can do anything, when are you going to get on the bandwagon? So...like the heading says and the folks at Niagra Falls are not condoning...put both legs over the fence and run...